Be Kind

What does it mean to be kind? Kind is defined as having a friendly, generous, polite, and considerate nature. Why is it that it is easier for me to be kind to my waitress, the check out girl, the person at the drive thru window, than it is to be kind to those I am close to? Why is it easier to be kind to those I am close to than it is to be kind to myself? I can be kind to a stranger for 5 minutes, but being consistently kind, day in and day out, to those I am close to is too hard? Does someone have to deserve my kindness? The better I know someone, the less of my kindness I think they have earned? Am I keeping score? Aiden (my 22 year old daughter and light of my life) was grumpy with me this morning and complaining about there being no milk in the house, so I was grumpy right back and told her that if she would buy some milk when she sees it getting low that wouldn't be a problem. Ha-told her! She didn't earn my kindness this morning. Wow, putting that in writing hurts. That's ugly. After that, I don't know if I can even write about being kind to myself. My inner voice is vicious! It points out every flaw, fault and weakness at every opportunity. I would never speak to another person the way I speak to myself all the time. So, I am going to work on being KIND, to myself, to those close to me and to everyone.